In the Beginning There Is an End

: In this fifteen-minute lecture-performance, Malin Arnell presents her dialogue with the work of French-Italian artist Gina Pane (1939–1990). Oriented around textual and visual traces of Pane and Arnell’s historical intra-action, this ongoing dialogue explores performance art documentation and historical narratives. The project interrogatestheoperationsofarchives,asking:‘Howdoqueerfeminist performancearchivesmakeyouvulnerable,howdotheymakeyoufeel,act,react?’‘Whosebodiesremainpresent,andwhichbodiesarelost?’ Theframeworkofthework—itsrepetitionwithvariationsanditsartisticandqueerfeministmethodologies—enablesanexploration ofhistory,documentation,andbodilyepistemologyasanattempttotakeresponsibilityforwhatisnotknownbydoing,throughaction— throughperformance.

In the Beginning There Is an End Approaching Gina Pane, Approaching Discours mou et mat

MALIN ARNELL
The lecture room at ICI Berlin is darkened.I place myself with a microphone on a stand behind the seated audience.I read the text below from an iPad.On the large screen in front of us, a fifteen-minute long excerpt from the documentation of my action Reflect Soft Matte Discourse (2011) 1 is projected parallel to the documentation of the French-Italian artist Gina Pane's (1939-1990) action Discours mou et mat (1975). 2 Here I am -Now -And then In front of you Within History The action Reflect Soft Matte Discourse was performed together with Clara López Menéndez, who featured as 'the body of an unknown woman' listed in the score, and Ulrika Gomm, who documented the action with a video camera.In the beginning there is an end.Slipping between position of power and passivity, between control and subservience.
Back to the fall of 2010.This is a beginning.
I had the film documentation of Discours mou et mat sent to me as a DVD. 6I played it on my computer: twenty-two minutes and thirtyfour seconds.I had help in translating the words spoken, but not clearly audible, in the action: Te Souviens-tu des seins de ta mère?In English: Do you remember your mother's breasts?And the response: Yes, they were soft and matte as snow.Up to this point, I had not been aware that the action contained a dialogue about the mother, that the mother was present in the action, that the naked body could be understood as the mother.I hadn't known and I really didn't want to know.It was important to me not to know.I didn't want to know about Gina Pane's relationship to the various objects or to the different activities.I wanted to learn, to learn by doing, by putting Discours mou et mat into motion, by putting my body into dialogue with the objects and activities of which Discours mou et mat is composed.I wanted to be able to relate to and understand Discours mou et mat through a physical interaction with the materials.I wanted to use Discours mou et mat to allow the pain, the wound, to take its place.
There is a distinct difference between my body here and now in this room (or then and there in 2011) and Gina Pane's body in Amsterdam in 1975.There are similarities.
I imagine a lesbian continuum or a continuum of homosocial desire.My body.Gina Pane's body.The lesbian body.Gina Pane firmly

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The action Reflect Soft Matte Discourse was performed together with Clara López Menéndez, who performed as 'the body of an unknown woman' listed in the score, and Ulrika Gomm, who documented the action with a video camera.Duration: 58 minutes.asserted that her attitude was 'absolutely not autobiographical' . 7By using Gina Pane's instructions, I am firmly asserting that my attitude is autobiographical (but not authentic).Is that possible?I follow the score to create experience through my body, along with an audience in a given place in a limited time span.Not to put forward the truth concerning Discours mou et mat, but instead in an attempt to take responsibility for what I do not know through doing, through action, through performance.
'I lose my identity to find it again in others, back and forth, balance between the individual and the collective, the transindividual body,' Gina Pane writes. 8

THIS IS A MUTUAL ACT
There are different versions of the score for Discours mou et mat.I will now read the one available in the archive of De Appel in Amsterdam: In order to enter the performance space, visitors first had to sidestep a motorcycle that blocked the entrance.In the room, several objects had been placed as the scenery of the forthcoming performance: a safety helmet, boxing gloves, knuckledusters, a gold-painted golf ball and razor blade, red and white roses, plus a naked woman whose back had been decorated with blue stars. 9 The first scene lasted fifteen minutes.Pane entered the performance space, dressed in white pants, a white blouse, and high heels of the same colour.She wore sunglasses and had drawn blue stars on her left arm and hand.On the floor had been placed two mirrors, with sheets of glass on top.On the right mirror (from Pane's point of view), stars had been drawn, and the word 'aliénation' had been written on the glass.The left mirror was blank, but on the sheet of glass on top, the portrait of a person wearing shades had been drawn.The sunglasses reflected a mill and a field of tulips.Pane kneeled down behind the mirrors and played two cymbals of cardboard, with cotton wool on the insides.After this silent concert several slides were projected.
During the second scene of five minutes, Pane smashed the sheets of glass with her fists.
The next ten minutes Pane sat down on a stool, playing tennis with a ball that hung from the ceiling.She hit the ball with a racket and stopped it with her forehead.
During the fourth scene, Pane crawled to the shattered sheets of glass to hit them once again, meanwhile gasping into a microphone.
For scene five, that also took ten minutes, Pane cut a vertical incision in her upper and under lip with a razor blade.
During the final scene, Pane laid down next to the naked woman and looked at the ceiling through binoculars.Meanwhile music by Brahms was played in slow-motion and some slides were shown.
There is also a clear difference between the political situations in Paris and Amsterdam in 1975 and the one in Stockholm in 2011.During the thirty-nine years that have passed since Discours mou et mat was performed, any number of political battles have been fought.Some of them are familiar, and some are not, probably different for all of us.Then, in 1975: I was five years old.I was hiding in the woods, making up my own reality.Out there was the New Left, the Black Power movement, the war in Vietnam, the African independence movements, gay liberation movement, the situationist movement, the May 1968 revolt in Paris, the French structuralist feminism movement.Monique Wittig published Les Guérillères and Le Corps Lesbien (translated as The Lesbian Body).Now: I have nowhere to hide.It's all around.It's inside.The inexorable growth of financial neoliberalism and concentration of wealth in fewer hands, the war on terror, the environmental catastrophe, the struggle to get through pessimism, the Arab spring, the Occupy Movement, Tiqqun in France, the revolts in Brazil and the deaths and confusion in Ukraine, the criminalization of homosexuality in Russia, and a Nordic region where xenophobia and racism are rampant, and the dismantling of the Swedish welfare state is at its peak.
And here we are.What battles are taking place right here right now?What is at stake?
In 1977, Gina Pane wrote: Before May 68, all living forces in Paris were working intensely to be able to get beyond the 'Social Criticism Theory' in order to be at peace with 'real life.'In this broken, upset environment, creativity was emerging everywhere.The confrontation of mine with the post-1968 public, benefited from a relationship that I could define as 'active' and my work was not only looked at, but lived.10Gina Pane's actions, including her self-inflicted wounds, were motivated by her ambition to promote an idea of the body as a communal entity.Indeed, for her, this was the condition for a collective deanesthetization.
If I open my 'body' so that you can see your blood therein, it is for the love of you: the Other.11 There is a religious, spiritual aspect in Gina Pane's work.In this respect, her actions can be seen as a direct attempt to create a link between her own body and the spilling of blood associated, in Christianity, with redemption.The tone of Gina Pane's words is sometimes biblical, and she seems to be referring to an almost Christ-like wound when she cuts herself, when she opens the wound through her actions.When she cuts her lips, her eyelids, her abdomen, her tongue and upper arms.
The wound stands for a state of the body's extreme sensitivity; it is a sign of suffering, a sign of external aggression.The wound recalls the situation of being the object of aggression, of always being exposed to violence. 12ina Pane often used the word 'aggression' . 13ina Pane once said that she had to perform Discours mou et mat to 'get her father and mother's relationship under control' .I thought I finally had that part under control.14And here I am, back in the middle of the psychoanalytic drama.Between consideration, offering, and acceptance.
The same year that Gina Pane performed Discours mou et mat, Hélène Cixous wrote The Laugh of the Medusa, in which she states: Woman must write herself: must write about women and bring women to writing, from which they have been driven away as violently as from their bodies -for the same reasons, by the same law, with the same fatal goal.Woman must put herself into the text -as into the world and into history -by her own movement.15Gina Pane never claimed to be a feminist, never firmly positioned herself as a lesbian, or dyke.In many of her works, she took a firm antibourgeois and anti-imperialist standpoint, and her fight was against the anesthetized society.She was neither an activist nor belonged to any political party, but she expressed a desire to challenge, through her work, 'the internal determinism' propped up by 'the regulatory systems' .

BETWEEN YOU AND ME
'Gina Pane's blood could not provide affirmation and succor for spectators, instead it demanded action.' 16 When I decided to reenact Discours mou et mat, I tried to be very concrete in my approach to the material.I did not want to relate my actions to a predetermined narrative.I wanted to admit not knowing.Creating another narrative.Making a path.Following one.I wanted to point out the daily occurrence of violence.To point out that violence is always present.
Gina Pane wrote: (The body is) the irreducible core of the human being, its most fragile part.This is how it has always been, under all social systems, at any given moment of history.And the wound is the memory of the body; it memorizes its fragility, its pain, thus its 'real' existence.It is a defense against the object and against the mental prosthesis. 17

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Figure 2. Malin Arnell, still from video documentation of Reflect Soft Matte Discourse, 2011, combined with a video still from Gina Pane's performance Discours mou et mat, 1975.Courtesy of the artist and the Galerie Kamel Mennour, Paris.

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Figure 3. Malin Arnell, still from video documentation of Reflect Soft Matte Discourse, 2011, combined with a video still from Gina Pane's performance Discours mou et mat, 1975.Courtesy of the artist and the Galerie Kamel Mennour, Paris.

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Figure 4. Malin Arnell, still from video documentation of Reflect Soft Matte Discourse, 2011, combined with a video still from Gina Pane's performance Discours mou et mat, 1975.Courtesy of the artist and the Galerie Kamel Mennour, Paris.